Ever give your all to someone. I mean your complete all, you mind, body and soul and then find out your not good enough for them. You thought the were you friend but turn out to be perfect little liars. All the promises yall made are all gone away. Promises to be there for each other no matter what only to find out its not true. You try your best to move on but everyday something reminds you of what yall had, and its like that pain is back and its not jus a regualr pain nope, its worse much worse. It mind boggling, heart wrenching almost like drowning in ice things are so cold. To see that you wasted your time and that you failed, when all you wanted to do was be there for them. Words cant express how you feel so the tears stain your pillow, they cripple you at the knees and make your days turn to night and your nights never end. You try to make sense of it but you can't, was I too fat, too short, too broke, to ugly, did my breath stink, did I smell, was i too passive, too aggressive, too nice, too mean what did I do to make you treat me like you do. All these questions run through your mind and you realize, you just wasted your time. The last time yall made love really was the last time yall made love. You didn't think abt it, you couldn't see it, and you really couldn't feel it. Like a thief in the night it was gone here one day and gone the next. You try to fix it but they tell you, they dont love you and thats the end of it. You're a wreck!
