True story pt. 1

I'm going to tell the story of my life how I felt and lived it. Now the way I write is very different but its entertaining none the less and is going to help you all.

“Woke up pissed!! Why cause my life sucks. I try and smile but its killin me inside. Born a virgin still that way but still this pain I can’t take away. I hear them they beat on the door and their knocks I ignore. I can’t take this shit anymore. 22 years of pain and terror no wonder I need my Strattera. It wasn’t my fault I was born under the stars but it seems like it is. He’s so sprung off of her he don’t see it seems all he wants to do is beat it. Cruella is what I used to call her now they call me Cinderella. “Why you didn’t do this, why you didn’t do that all I get is pure smack. Smack yea that’s what I want to do but to God that would be untrue. What did I do wrong why do you despise me so how can I be your seed if never given water to grow. Maybe I have to rely on the rain to help ease my pain so this seed that was planted God will help it grow.” I wrote this on my way to church after waking up in my hell. Everything is fine is what I tell them knowing its all a lie. Born 22 years ago in the bathroom of my grandparents house. I was told I was the easiest birth of them all. I didn’t cry she didn’t scream I just had a big pretty smile with some big pretty eyes. I didn’t know what lay ahead of me. I didn’t know I was an unwanted guest in “her” world. Of course I was mommy’s first girl but her third child. She knew me, loved me but now she’s just my carrier. To him  he didn’t know my existence. I don’t know what happen between then and then being a newborn your mind just can’t bend. The story goes his brother saw the mother at the store, went back told his older brother who then told his mother that he made her another mother. The news was broken to her and well that’s when all the pain began. When the memories start to kick in I don’t remember no good just all bad and this is here might make you sad but hell from where I stand THIS SHIT MAKES ME MAD!!!!!